Today I got my first bit of bad news in a long time. To be honest, I am very blessed that this is the only bad news i have gotten in a long time because its not that bad, its just a frustration and sends me to the world of the unknown. My job for the summer fell through and I found out this morning. I understand why and its going to work out better in the end for the other guy that he not hire me (or so I need to believe) but I can't help but feel scared now. I am about to move to France in a matter of months and I need to have some money in order to do that. I need to buy an 800 dollar plane ticket in the next week, and where am I going to get the money to do that? I am asking the stupid questions, knowing full well that I am in God's control and His hands and he will take care of me because he is the one who has given me this vision and love and desire to pick up and leave everything and everyone I know and move to a foreign country where I don't speak the language or know but a few souls. But i'm still a little scared.
I am going back to the drawing board and am going to need to spend some time in prayer just trying to figure out what all the next few months have in store for me. Just saying where my heart and my head are at...
Oh, and ps. I am actually ready for Hong Kong now! woo hoo! For the last few weeks I have been dreading the thought of going to Hong Kong for three weeks! But after yesterdays meeting and the day before it, i feel like I am ready and excited again! phew! I was worried I would hate that experience because of my lack of enthusiasm towards it. But i think my mom was right, I was just tired of traveling and need to reenergize before I could focus on another trip.
Ok, now i'm off to buy food for the fridge so I don't feel the temptation to go to Chipotle (my current obsession) again.
Here's to trusting, not needing to understand, and living a day at a time!!!! CHEEERS!
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