So this morning, I don't know if its the lack of sunshine outside or the fact that its getting colder each day but I feel as though this weekend, and today in particular, I'm out to accomplish stuff. I've become a list writer. I'm always making to-do lists, grocery lists, lists of how and when I'm going to graduate, lists of gifts I want for Christmas, lists of everything! ...and somehow rarely do they ever get used or get done! This weekend i accomplished so little but yet i accomplished a lot. Now only 1 paper more and a few homework's and I will be partially caught up on school work! yay!

So, i have a graduation date...the Lord willing! August 2010!!!! WOOO HOOO! That seems like so far some days and other days, i can smell the end! (it's a very sweet smell, haha) The Lord has so graciously provided for me throughout this whole college journey. I can remember being in high school and just not wanting to go to college. It definitely was not a priority until...2ND semester senior year. And then just finding my place, where i was supposed to be, and what i was supposed to be doing. I'm not going to lie, if i could go back, i would opt to not go to college or to fast forward through this part of my life, but sitting here right now, i am glad that i have not only had this opportunity but that i took advantage of these opportunities. So now all that is left is to get that last bit of energy and keep it going until August of 2010 when i have that diploma of COMPLETION in my hands. 

OH OH OH...that almost looks like HO HO HO. I'm easily distracted and easily entertained. So just a random bit of information, if you are looking to get a passport or renew your passport, RIGHT NOW is the time to do it. I went to get my passport renewed after 3 years, mine expired i think Jan 2006. And people always tell you, you need to do it as soon as possible because it could take a long time, i think I've even heard someone quote up to 6 months to get a passport. Well, I was loving me some government this weekend when on Friday I went to open my mail and i found what? my renewed passport...after only ONE week! It took them less than a week to process my application and get it back to me! (And my picture is good this time, haha) 

So now with my brand new reissued United States of America passport, I have HUGE plans for the 2 of us this next year! My plans start  (and I'm being serious) with a trip to Paris during spring break and then in May/June I'm going to China to study abroad. And then hopefully to New Mexico, but fortunately you don't need a passport to go there! 

So, here's to dreams and accomplishments and dreaming some more... oh yea, and you can't forget the Lord providing! *cheers*

Something new...

I am kind of obsessed with reading other people's blogs. Weird. So i decided to update mine (by deleting all my previous blogs I've had since 1996) and start fresh and new. I love how raw and real people can get on here, and I wish it could be that way for me. I will try! I feel so weird being so honest when I have no idea who could possibly fumble upon this and read it!?

Tonight I told myself that I was going to go to bed before 10pm and well, that is not going to happen. Mainly because it is nearly 11pm and I am still sitting on my couch! But I have been thinking... That is how I am. I tell myself I am going to do something, I make 'to do' lists and then at the end of the day I find that I have done nothing productive. ugh. ugh. ugh. 

This is what has been on my heart: 

I quit my jobs a few months ago to focus on what the Lord had been pulling at my heart to do. He had revealed that I was not living a life for Him. I had become someone I never thought possible. I was not doing bad things or even what society would consider a bad person, but speaking of society, I had become OF it. I had become quite materialistic and a workaholic if you will. I gave it up to Him and I said I would quite my job, become part of the Body again and get my priorities straight. I thought that quitting my jobs were the hardest things I would have to encounter. This life we live is a very hard one I have come to realize. And it can seem quite lonely too! I have realized that of coarse, you give it all to God and He will show you the path, but the road can be quite bumpy and long and hard and dark sometimes. 

Unfortunately, I have let go of my end of the bargain in a way...I have not been the person I said I would be if He allowed me to quit my jobs. He has been more than sufficient in meeting my needs in more ways that I can explain, but I find myself, at the end of the day thinking, WHAT DID I DO TODAY? I have fallen away from him again and when that happens, the things that you think matter really don't. 

So here's to diving in to the Lord, one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time... trusting in HIM completely and giving Him my everything! *cheers*